Back to my blog again. ytd sleep late today so early wake up. haix i dream of her when i was sleeping. when i woke up i felt Empty, Missing her, lonely and felt uneasy. i dunno what to do but to send her a sms. i watch tv until 10 after that i decide to go cycle. i dunno where i going i was aimlessly cycling but i know the road i cycling is towards her house. when i reach her hse dwnstair i thinking about our memories. izzit too late to regret now? i nv stop i keep cycle until i reach toh guan. i made a u-turn there then cycle back. while i was cycling back i felt sad, hurt and disappointed. when i reach home i read my sms. i almost cry but i did cry in the toilet to not let my brother know. haix my heart felt heavier like a feeling that very hard to Express.Like A angel with no wings on it. Like a person with no Smile on it. like a person with no sense on it. Like a person With no feeling on it. i wonder what i can do i am lost i very lost. i can't seem to find myself back i think i also lost to myself . all i hope is that we are still together..... If u read this now. I really want to be with u. even tot u felt insecure i try my best to make u felt secure again. i nv blame u since starting. u lighten up the old me. but the old me was dead long ago. U revive me and he it lost aagin . and now things happen old me. now i dunno what to do le but to wait for your final answer. If the old me were to dead again the old me will be dead forever. If i were to go back. and u still choose me i really want to give u the love, care, everything u stated. maybe u nv felt my love it because of me bah maybe not your fault alone. but if time were to went back i try my best. i Think it too late to regret but to accept the truth. May your answer find your happiness. All i wish is to see u happy. i really hope to see the oldself of you. your smile and your laughter. I hope i can find them back for u but i dun think so now. If we were together I try my best to find back the old Chua jia xin. The old Ti how will continue living until the day u given me the answer.

MY last sentence for u. No matter what your answer will be. I am still the blurking u know that love u every sec, mintue and hours. It time the Emo tihow to be back until your given me your answer to see if the old tihow were to be dead or alive. And i Am sorry for ytd sorry for everything. Take care. ( No matter the answer is continue this relationship or not i Still the 1 Loving u. i will never forget the time we spened our kisses, the place we go and everything when we were together. U still my zhu zhu, my dear, and my 1 and only love ones. I love you)