Hmm now i stop awhile cause lychee got something to do. Nobody to talk to i wonder who i can find to chat with. I ask myself this question since last two weeks. comparing Now and the 3 weeks when i with her. who is the real me. i dunno i dun seem to see that i am myself during that 1 month T.T why izzit when i want treasure something but it already too late ? izzit god Punishing me ? Or Not fated? I dunno i been finding this answer myself but i dun seem to get it. My jie, brother and Some good friend of mine said this to me " u can do de it depend u want to do it or not. " Like basketball i can win de it depend i want to win or not. I am those want or not want or not that kind of person. can't make decision de once made also do until it very best to get it. but not all the thing i can control de. Haix I really HOPE SOMEONE WHO READ MY BLOG SCOLD ME THE SENSE OUT OF ME. BEAT ME THE SENSE OUT OF ME. I know what happening around me But i myself haix can't get any better then anyone out there. Please if u read my blog i hope u can scold me or beat me up let me know that u are scolding me and beating me. haix i dunno why i say that but i really hope i NOT AWAKE . outside me seem nth but inside me is sleeping. Ah dunno why i type this just want type it out. hope tml will be better. Maybe this week go eat sushi but i dunno when.