Today

Hmm today woke up. so so very noisy outside then wake up. abit tired. but my eye very pain like my eye lid closing up to my another eye lid liao T.T .... my grandmother ask me if i cried ytd i said i dunno actually really i dunno since saturday my eye jiu abit like that le . haix zzzz. ytd actually got alot of said but cause i too rush le nv say much. hmm i guess i forgot what i want to say. zzz my second brother and his wife. they two fighting wor T.T reach home jiu saw her crying there. my big brother, parent + my grandma scold my second brother. i can tell that my second brother dun wan like this de but it cause haix long story.( lack of understanding) if u want know call me bah ^^ lazy to type. haix today break le for 1 week. this 1 week i think alot i tot it will go slower then last time but it still really slow. i got a habit of eatting chocolate, ice cream and sleep until late late T.T dunno why even i dun have the habit of wearing watch last time but now whenever i go out i wearing it. i always tot that i dun learn anything from relationship. i intend to make mistake and regret. now i did learn something. not steading with her as an test object but it truly want to be with her. Talking to puxiu ytd i hope she alright. listen to me u won't regret.Read the next sentence it might help u. Follow what u guess is right. i guess u mature enough to understand what is right and what is wrong. u dunno who is bad and who is good but u surely know what is right and what is wrong. dun lost your confidence Jia you wor.

I somehow learn to see thing diffen from others.
I somehow Know what the true meaning of love. (not just expressing but something else)
I somehow know why friend are important.
I somehow know who i really am. ( i no longer what i used to be. but u know it when u see me)
I somehow know alot of thing but i lazy to list them down. maybe i mature le bah maybe not. growing up is a life on learning. just like life skills. like u know how to cycle it forever stick with u. give u a bike and u can cycle. short form For life u gonna know that skills. i guess no matter how long the sentence i gonna said i know/learn or whatever , others won't know action is the main thing. like i tell u i okay le. but when u meet me i still have the hurted/sad look it explain alot. if my action dun mean my word. no matter what i said it also no use. action mean alots. Main thing i learn is relationship won't normally have perfect ending. it like a game. example maplestory u keep playing and playing main reason? get to level 200 am i right? same for relationship it like u do so many thing for your another half main reason? to be with your another half. something i dun wan to said is that. for example maplestory u chiong to level 200 comfirn sian 1 right? same for relationship sometime u dunno when your another half will become sian of u for what u do. it just keep reapeating and repeating the same thing over and over again. for maplestory u sian u quit maple. but for relationship u sian u started to find another person and u find him better then the person with u now. then break off. what i want to said is sometime freedom also involve inside relationship. u dun give your another half freedom often they will get tired of you.( puxiu, jiaxin, jm or jolene who read it it doesn't matter. i want said how i view from my brother and his wife. there can be alot of reason behide but i can tell u what i think) it can be filled with happiness but it also can filled with sadness or even worst break off. i see my second brother and his wife de case. Trust is the most important feeling of all. without trust it won't have happiness. Sadness will come by. worst break off. Another is Understanding. without understanding of each other. most likely it alway end up breaking. Lastly i think i learn How to overcome my own fear. this is something i haven learn so many years but toward her. i manage to learn. i guess this sentence in chinese " while growing u learn until u become" whou dao lao shuer dao lao. if read le read still dun understand what i trying to write u can try to find me and chat. for those who understand good luck weather u in relationship or not. our age it just too young to get into this kind of thing. what it give only mermories and experiance. take care and good luck to those in relationship ^^

To her
All the while since the day we started i know u still can't forget sotong, but i still continue i actually told my jie but now i tell u. all the while i was hurt cause i dun seem to find u are like steading with me. until your birthday hmm that day u say u feel insecure then i recall what u do and did i hurt u. i know the answer by heart, i actually wanted to say break with u. i dunno why i can't say it out. so until that day 10/06/08 i dunno i making u angry. when i know it u are angry if that time i say i dun wan know anything u still will break with me. I guess u ytd meet up with sotong at night bah. i guess u want patch with him de bah. i want to say is maybe he forget u le then now u say u want him back. regret and disappointed or sad won't help u. Just go for what u want give it a try.( i dunno why i suddenly saying this) maybe thing will change to what u wanted. i bless u have an happy ending bah if can cya soon ^^ jiayou