Today

Hmm woke up at 8. ytd sleep at 2 very tired T.T then watch the legend of speeds again. cause nice ma. ard 1030 xi wen come my hse. he use com lor i watching tv until 1230 we went dwn wait for puxiu. then we go outside schoolwait for her. then intend to take bus to imm but in the end take mrt. meet jm at JE then walk to imm. at imm xi wen go see his love once lols i disturb him. then eat after that walk awhile jiu went jx hse downstair dunno do what but since i had my lunch i nv talk much le cause dun feel like it.reach her hse downstair i do my own thing they do their own thing. i walk around then see a mini mart shop went buy sweet eat.after back go back see none of them T.T actually they went to buy drink hahas nvm.they chat chat i play psp then she say she want go home then i also said let go bah. we go JP, JM went home cause his phone no battery. at jp we went to food court i eat coco ice kachang T.T eat finish le walk around then see jolene with her fried lols. chaat awhile we went basement the new open shop there the place very clean we chat over there lor. Since i at mrt i keep chating to puxiu until the basement then chat with xi wen. Dun wish to say anymore le cause i bo mood liao ps. Stopping here not a happy day or a sad day. pretty normal.

My feeling

I had a dream ytd. haix dun wish to say but not a good dream either. i began think alot today cause i dunno how to face her bah. even though we meeting each other and some other friend go imm but i didn't talk to her much cause i avoiding her bah. I dunno why maybe i choose to give up in the first place i should just let them have happiness? haix thing bother me again. i dunno who to share. i wanted to share with her but haix better dun bah. Life alway have Spilted road u just have to choose 1 and continue what u had chosen. once u choose u can't turn back le. like a chopstick it was perfectly match. but u want to eat noodle u have to spilt them apart so u can continue eat. when u want the spilted chopstick to be together again. No matter how u glue or anything it still have the unfix hole and gap in between. I guess since i choose to Suffer myself and let them be together i should not try bother them. I once heard from my friend, U dun have to be together or stead with your love once. but u see them happy u ownself also will happy de. Am i happy ? i asked myself this few days am i happy to see her happy with someone else? i dunno. I still dun understand the sentence. i dun feel i am happy but i feel i regreted alot. haix Fate bah maybe. i once told her i dun believe in fate. i believe that fate is within us. i guess i am half correct and half wrong. Something that are yours will forever be yours. something which is not yours will not forever be yours. Haix Blame it that i am late or i did something foolish bah. I regreted since the month April i know my feeling for her but i didn;t tell her.... i guess i too late le bah. getting tired le dun wish to write. I really hope we still can be together. I guess just my wish that all

To her

I am sorry i did something like avoiding this kind of thing. but really i dun wan get involve in three sided love le. i guess i choose to give up so u two can have happiness. I once told u i let those miserable or any word of yours change into the word call happiness. i nv the happiness come from me. but from others. I want tell u Learn how to treasure maybe u haven learn it. but learn it now. Advice for u Think furthure abit. if u had then nvm. take care