Wednesday.

Went for cca, Safehome Well teacher force me to go. Early in the morning at 6.15 i woke up to bath change cloth then went out of my hse at 630 to take mrt. cause meeting my jie and mei at 7. we take mrt i nv talk much as i was listening to song. quite moody actually. we need patong pasir at 7.45 then go eat macdonal. eat around 820 go to the near by taxi stand wait for teacher to bring us go. we went to balestial ITE for training. well at around 930 we go tea break at ard 10 we started our first activity play game haix. can't put my whole heart on playing cause i still feeling moody. at around 1230 we went for lunch. 1 plus thing start happen to me. my stomach suddenly reach hall le very pain. i tot i need go toilet but not toilet problem. but then now i know i stomach cramp. zzzz i rest awhile then go learn some life skills lor. bored at around 5 teach bring us to book keng. my mei want go plaza sing but i want go singapore river. so my mei go alone lor( sorry) my jie pei me lor. we reach singapore river that time i started to emo le. i think back the past while i siting near the river. where i can see the bungee jump thing. i promise her i will take her there. haix i talk to jie lor until 6.45 went home( thx jie for accompany). at home was bored all i do is listen to music and look outside of my window until i tired i went to sleep.

Thursday

Again wake up same time doing the same thing went mrt meet my jie, Mei + 1 friend for the cca training. suppose to be a training camp but cause dunno what happen then become not camp le. i was rather bored today. so i make fun of my jie and mei. they tot i was back but i was not haix. i dun wan them worried like ytd. my teacher spoke to me, my jie spoke to me, my mei also spoke to me haix i still like that. So i just went on with the activitiy. 5 Pm like that we reach mrt le. we dunno where to go but i sugguest chinatown. they all follow lor reach chinatown le i began to go emo again T.T .we walk and walk until we reach the musuem side. i was like haix but i told them since u all hungry why dun u all go up and eat i want walk to the musuem. they agree so i walk to the musuem myself. first thing is i went the to place where they write about their stories. after that i check the log book. can't seem to find our name there i was like sian le haix. then i walk off to find them. when i remenber i wanted to write the log book i forgot i went up again but it was close. too sian. then i meet up with them after eating then went home. at home also doing the same thing until i sleep.

Today

No more training le so nv go. woke up at 830 but rather tired. not sure will be meeting her or not but still thinking of what present can give memorable. haix haix haix still can't let it go T.T But finally i found my watch well it too late i guess. we both have the same watch for now. haix my phone bill come le. over shock le tio scold zzzz. Now still thinking of her ytd was fine but today i kept thinking of her. i guess i think i can't live on without her le bah. hope can really 1 day patch back. if really were to wait until poly i dun think i can like that keep suffering lor haix zzzz. maybe next week will be going to all the place i and her went when we were together. cause i know when i reach some place we went before i can imagine i and her that time what we do. Can't seem to find myself back. haix i really want be with u. it not retribution it misunderstanding of me.

I lost my Smile, laughter,my mood when play basketball, myself,my passion and i lost myself.
I want my smile, laughter,my mood when play basketball,myself,my passion, myself and lastly her. i wonder who can help me. who can guide me who can scold me when i do stupid things. i guess only she can T.T i told my brother le. he tell me alot of things but only for ytd i feel abit okay. but then today still the same as before haix zzz